Friday, August 17, 2012

Heart Full of Love


It’s been a long week
And an even longer summer right?
She won’t speak,
And I’m longing for the winter right?

I want peace
And a little bit of dinner right?
But no one calls me
And my wallets getting thinner. Like,

I walk the concrete
With only a heart full of air
And a bag full of love.

It’s all I got
But I’m thankful for the snub
When I was dragged right through the mud

When life was through for us
And I passed right through your slugs.
                       
Cuz

I was told we were in for some rain.

Shit,

I look up to the sun
Like that happy little fucker
Ain’t ready for some change.

So I prepare for it to rain
As much bullets
As I sweat
My choices.

Feelings suck
And I wish I could
Void this
Voiceless
Trying to find another way
To avoid this

But I find I still apologize,
I say sorry
And she says
It’s about time.

I say that’s true
So we should enjoy
The little we got
On this little bit of rock

But it’s strange;
She was looking for it to rain
So I took the horse by his reins.

                        Shit,

I look in his eyes
Like that happy little fucker
Ain’t ready for some change.

So we ride off,
With a heart full of love
And a bag full of air
That’s all we needed.

And all that emotional baggage?
Leave it
For someone else to feel it
For someone else to receive it.

                        Shit,

It’s kinda selfish
But I done gave and gave
Till the contents of my safe

Hidden in my rib cage
Ran empty
I try to save a little face

While I’m waiting for the rain
Cuz all my little faith has went away
In a blaze, I watch as it raged

                        Shit,

Looking at those flames
Like those happy little fuckers
Ain’t ready for some change.

So they went away
With a bag full of hearts
And the air was full of empty

But what sense does that make?
I’m tense and I ache
I tried to take my own life
But the Heavens wouldn’t let me.

So I think about my friends,
The ones that I have,
The ones that I had,
And the ones that I’ll never make.

Whatever,

Don’t let that revolving door
Hit you in the ass
On your way out.

See this little crow
Was made to be alone
And so,
I’d like to dedicate this poem

To anyone who’s out of their zone,
Element,
In the cold,
Irrelevant,
Alone.

Cuz see there’s more than one way
To skin this cat,
Peel it back,
Let’s see where my liver’s at!

Feel my back
While I spit my fever raps,
Peel it back
Cuz there’s more than one way
To feel this cat.

So I roll out,
Hit the concrete
With empty pockets
And empty little fists.

And a bag full of air
And a heart full of something
That I no longer
Believe exists.

So I’ll pass
Right through her slugs
And I was told
We were in for some rain.

                        Shit,

I look at myself
Like this happy little fucker
Ain’t ready for some change.
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