Heart Full of Love

It’s been a long week

And an even longer summer right?

She won’t speak,

And I’m longing for the winter right?

I want peace

And a little bit of dinner right?

But no one calls me

And my wallets getting thinner. Like,

I walk the concrete

With only a heart full of air

And a bag full of love.

It’s all I got

But I’m thankful for the snub

When I was dragged right through the mud

When life was through for us

And I passed right through your slugs.

                       

Cuz

I was told we were in for some rain.

Shit,

I look up to the sun

Like that happy little fucker

Ain’t ready for some change.

So I prepare for it to rain

As much bullets

As I sweat

My choices.

Feelings suck

And I wish I could

Void this

Voiceless

Trying to find another way

To avoid this

But I find I still apologize,

I say sorry

And she says

It’s about time.

I say that’s true

So we should enjoy

The little we got

On this little bit of rock

But it’s strange;

She was looking for it to rain

So I took the horse by his reins.

                        Shit,

I look in his eyes

Like that happy little fucker

Ain’t ready for some change.

So we ride off,

With a heart full of love

And a bag full of air

That’s all we needed.

And all that emotional baggage?

Leave it

For someone else to feel it

For someone else to receive it.

                        Shit,

It’s kinda selfish

But I done gave and gave

Till the contents of my safe

Hidden in my rib cage

Ran empty

I try to save a little face

While I’m waiting for the rain

Cuz all my little faith has went away

In a blaze, I watch as it raged

                        Shit,

Looking at those flames

Like those happy little fuckers

Ain’t ready for some change.

So they went away

With a bag full of hearts

And the air was full of empty

But what sense does that make?

I’m tense and I ache

I tried to take my own life

But the Heavens wouldn’t let me.

So I think about my friends,

The ones that I have,

The ones that I had,

And the ones that I’ll never make.

Whatever,

Don’t let that revolving door

Hit you in the ass

On your way out.

See this little crow

Was made to be alone

And so,

I’d like to dedicate this poem

To anyone who’s out of their zone,

Element,

In the cold,

Irrelevant,

Alone.

Cuz see there’s more than one way

To skin this cat,

Peel it back,

Let’s see where my liver’s at!

Feel my back

While I spit my fever raps,

Peel it back

Cuz there’s more than one way

To feel this cat.

So I roll out,

Hit the concrete

With empty pockets

And empty little fists.

And a bag full of air

And a heart full of something

That I no longer

Believe exists.

So I’ll pass

Right through her slugs

And I was told

We were in for some rain.

                        Shit,

I look at myself

Like this happy little fucker

Ain’t ready for some change.

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