Hands Waving

"You couldn’t save me
If you tried

Hands waving

Goodbye

You can see it
In my eyes
Cuz I ain’t afraid

To die."

I wrote that at the snot nosed

Age of seventeen

And see

A lot has changed since then.

I’m older now,

Kinda have a beard now

Some fear now

And kind of a weird style

But listen

I’ve learned that it’s far from macho

To not fear death,

In fact,

You’re foolish if you don’t.

You can see it in the eyes

Of the little kids in ruined homes

As they lose hope

Being choked

With bruised throats

So tell me you don’t fear death

Mr. Big Machismo

Tell it to the kid on chemo

Even people

Who’re living heroes

Fear death.

I saw it in my pop’s eyes

The day his mom passed,

Yes,

The impact stressed

His fear of mortality

Even after months had left

Punk, I guess

You’ll see it in our own eyes

Three years from now

On those nights

When the fear is the only reason you survive.

So don’t look to death

Look alive

You don’t look impressed

Look at life

If you’re not convinced

Look at mine

Look at ours

What we faced

For eleven hundred days.

Let’s call it fate,

Let’s call it whatever, whenever

To hang up in its face.

Let’s leave that call waiting

Cuz you’ve yet to find your calling

And when you finally do

It’s gonna be amazing

So put your chips all in

And fuck trying to be that

Hollywood dude.

You do more good

Staying low key

But the high note

In the lives of those you meet.

And foes will speak

But don’t let those quotes make you weak

Fuel to the fire

Make your flow unique

Soul of a lion

Like it’s supposed to be

Get it Mr. Big Machismo?

Now you know what I know

What we know

That even people who’re living evil

Fear death.

See this poem is what

I’d tell you

If I could

If I had that chance.

The seventeen year old snot nose

Writing bars, ignorant

Of life and death

But pretends like he understands.

I used to think I knew it all,

Hell, I still think I do

I always was hard headed

But never weak hearted

To the seventeen year olds now,

Life will get you down

If you let it.

But stay strong,

Stay vigilant

No matter the twists and turns

Hits or burns, gifts or curse.

Just stay strong,

Stay vigilant

Mourn death

But celebrate life.

Stay strong,

Stay vigilant

The last thing

To die is hope.

As for me,

I can’t change my past

However,

I can update the lines I wrote:

Like "We can save each other

If we tried

Hands waving

Goodbye

You can see it

In my eyes,

Apollo the Child

Is afraid to die."

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